...With Magic Soaking My Spine.

justinjake @ 2008-03-24T19:01:00

2008-03-25T02:26:04Z

1. Name: Justin Jake Long
2. Age: 19
3. Are you currently in a monogamous relationship? Nope
4. How many times a week do you and your partner have sexual relations? Our business XD
5. How many times have you and your partner used toys during sex/foreplay? No.. XP
6. Have you ever roleplayed in the bedroom? No.
7. Have you ever cheated? I have.
8. Have you ever slept with more than two people in one day? Am I really that bad of a person..
9. Hour? Nooooo
10. Most reaccuring fantasy? A life with Brandon :D
11. Really, how big is it? X]
12. How many people have you had sex (oral or otherwise) with? I can't answer this..
13. Do you like it rough? Don't a lot of people? X]
14. Dirty talk? No..well..I don't know haha
15. Sexiest thing someone can say to you? Anything involving Brandon :]
16. Who did you lose your virginity to? My best friend.
17. Name someone who lost their virginity to you. No one?
18. Name someone who you would like to have sex with if situation would allow it: ...
19. Celebrity you would like to fuck: Nahhh, BRANDON FLOWERS.
20. How often do you masturbate? :]
21. What do you think about when you're masturbating? *Ahem see ..nevermind.
22. how often do you sexually think about the opposite sex? They're cool :]
23. Have you ever used a dildo? Nooo... XP
24. Favorite Bedroom toy? Heh..?
25. Favorite part of your partners body to kiss? Everywhere
26. Favorite part of your partners body period? Everywhere
27. One thing you'd like to ask your partner to do but are too afraid to really ask for? Nothing
28. One thing that sexually bothers you about your partner? Nothing
29. If you could change one thing about you sexually what would it be? That Bert and I had sex more

Oh Oh See! :] [OOC]

2008-02-22T02:59:15Z

This is what happens when Ann [Gerard/GabeS] and I [Justin/Christian&EhrenS] are told to be quiet during an hour of class.
Yes, we're so amazing. I know. :]
The weird scribbly cursive writing is yours truly and the legible print is Ann.
Please excuse the horrendous drawing...I haven't drawn anything in the last...like..2 months XD

justinjake @ 2008-02-07T20:49:00

2008-02-08T04:55:24Z

Sooo...
Sam did it. Cause I didn't know how.
We decided to remain friends so it's all okay.
We're just really different people with different views and etc etc.
So yeah, it wasn't that bad.
I'm fine...if that matters..

anyone wanna be my Valentine?

justinjake @ 2008-01-31T19:30:00

2008-02-01T04:25:22Z

And so ...
I realized that I only know like...
5 people..
Sam
Ehren
Randy
~~Gerard~~ Momma
Andy
Christian
Scotty
Josh
8 I lied...
Heh...
If you're not on this list it's cause you haven't talked to me in forever or something...
Yeah, come talk to me?

I feel obnoxiously social right now...I think this feeling might last. :D
Soooo, just drop by orrr

XplicitPsychotic

hit it ! :]

justinjake @ 2008-01-27T21:33:00

2008-01-28T05:34:36Z

I'm wide awake and so alive
Ringing like a bell
Tell me this is paradise
And not someplace I fell
'Cause I keep on fallin' down

I wanna feel the car crash
I wanna feel the capsize
I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop
'Til I'm satisfied
I wanna feel the car crash
'Cause I'm dyin' on the inside
I wanna let go and know
That I'll be alright, alright

Just push me 'til I have to fly
I've shed my skin, my scars
Take me deep out past the lights
Where nothing dims these stars
Nothing dims these stars

I wanna feel the car crash
I wanna feel the capsize
I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop
'Til I'm satisfied
I wanna feel the car crash
'Cause I'm dyin' on the inside
I wanna let go and know
That I'll be alright, alright

So right
It's all wrong

I'm wide awake and so alive

I wanna feel the car crash
I wanna feel the capsize
I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop
'Til I'm satisfied
I wanna feel the car crash
'Cause I'm dyin' on the inside
I wanna let go and know
That I'll be alright, alright

justinjake @ 2008-01-24T20:51:00

2008-01-25T05:27:54Z

I don’t want to do this anymore.

This whole trying to be happy thing.

It’s not working.

I’m not happy. ~~Ehren won’t give me what makes me happier at the moment cause Sam told him not to. I respect that, but it’s not helping me right now.~~

That’s all.

Continue with your lives.

Well hello sir, we look for Monday,
Confident we’ll get there someday,
Pushing all the papers to a wealthy man,
Might I say, a beautiful tie you wear,
and how do you find such lovely polka dots and stripes these days?

Break all my thoughts hit the floor,
like I’m making the score,
I’m the king of the world,
I’m a popular man
count by zero’s to ten,
if you cant, well I can,
don’t let anyone wake me

I’m dreaming out loud,
dreaming out loud,
and all at once it’s so familiar to see,
I’m dreaming out loud,
dreaming out loud,
can’t find a puzzle to fit into piece of a part of me

Curtain calls a sanctuary,
Actors in the cloth, they freak me out,
Mocking my purpose, in the magazines,
Famous how they make you feel grand,
they’re always there to hold your hand,
in times of trouble, they’re best of friends

Break all my thoughts hit the floor,
like I’m making the score,
I’m the king of the world,
I’m a popular man
count by zero’s to ten,
if you cant, well I can,
don’t let any one wake me

I’m dreaming out loud,
dreaming out loud,
and all at once its so familiar to see,
I’m dreaming out loud,
dreaming out loud,
can’t find a puzzle to fit into piece of a part of me

They don’t care what you say
They don’t care what you think
all they care, what you do,
long as your of beat,
take a look at yourself

Storm tries to come and wreck my world,
No I ~~won’t~~ let it
stumble to escape, through anchored drapes, made of bedding

I’m dreaming out loud,
dreaming out loud,
and all at once its so familiar to see,
I’m dreaming out loud,
dreaming out loud,
can’t find a puzzle to fit into piece of a part of me

~~Well, hello Sir we look for Mondays.~~

I don't know what's wrong with me anymore.
I just...
Don't .
Don't .
Don't .

I WANT ONNEEE!

2008-01-22T09:55:38Z

I dunno why I can't sleep.
But I CAN'T.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
I feel cold.
And lonely.
I'm scared.

Josh. :[

2008-01-21T04:20:55Z

I miss you..lots.
Why don't you come see me anymore?
T__T

OOC

2008-01-20T19:02:15Z

If you're talking to Christian/Ehren/Justin and they're suddenly gone...
It's cause my AIM hates my existence.
Yep.

So it's not cause I hate you, X] .. or whatever..?
And if I said I'd be back on like 45 minutes and I never came back, it's cause AIM decided to cave in on itself and rape my computer in the process...therefore my computer is in like therapy right now. ~~I swear I am not the weirdest person alive.~~
Meaning none of my characters will be around for the next few days to a week or so...?
Honestly, I don't know.
Yay AIM...

<333 Sahana

I think I'm a horrible boyfriend..

2008-01-14T08:18:04Z

I think I made Sam feel bad by telling him the hot chocolate tasted better than him.
T__T
I was kidding.
OF COURSE YOU TASTE BETTER. YOU TASTE LIKE SAM!
-sniffle
Sorry, please forgive meeeeeee.
-pout

Cause..
ILYSM!
:]

Yep...Fun Times!

2008-01-11T06:09:42Z

Andy came over to cuddle!
So from now on, he's gonna come sleep over so I can cuddle with him and protect him from his super mean nightmares.
They're not very nice! He was really tired today because of it! ~~I'm gonna beat them with my superman muscles!~~
And he's super sweet, so it's all worth it. :]
ILYSMANDY!

And then Sam played me one of my favorite songs on guitar.
ILSYMSAM!

~~There's some new boy trying to hit on Sam. It's not very nice...~~

So there lives this wonderful boy named Andy!

2008-01-09T06:19:43Z

I had an amazing day!
:]

Played tag with Andy, and then he let me win and carried me to his room, where we watched American Pie: Band Camp.
And it was so funny! LOLZ.
He's such a sweetheart.
He made me feel really good about myself today.
ILYSM ANDYY!!
<333333333

He came and brightened my day...Just a bit though..

2008-01-08T01:15:31Z

So he came to visit me this morning. That boy that called me a dirty slut when I was forced to go home... I didn't really want to see him, but they said he was really sorry and wanted to see me. I guess I'm a huge push over or I'm too nice and I have the disease to please..or something. I don't think I'll ever change. : \

Yeah, so I talked with for a bit, turns out he was sorry, and we're on pretty good terms now. :]
He's not ~~too~~ bad.
I mean...he came bearing ~~hidden~~ gifts.
And now I'm fucking loaded.
I haven't gotten wasted in FOREVER.

Yeeaaaahhh.

Let's hang out and have a party.
:D

My First Survey, Borrowed From A Jesse Lacey X]

2008-01-07T06:35:40Z

First of all...

Your name: Justin Jake Long
Age: 18
Gender: Male
Sexual preference: My boyfriend X]

The exes...

How many exes do you have? Two I think.. :\
Name them: That's ok..
Who did you go out with for the longest amount of time? My first.."boyfriend"
Shortest? It's not worth mentioning..
Do you still talk to any of your exes? No
Still feel anything for any of them? Not Really...NO, they were JERKS.
Which was your most significant relationship? Sammy Bear!

Crushes...
Who was your first crush? My guitar teacher... Great relationship that was...
What made you like them? The hair, the look, the way he was..
Did you ever ask them out? He asked me..
Did they know you liked them? Bet he did...
Did they like you back? I don't think so. NO.
Did you ever go out of your way to impress them? Only once...Playing a song.
How did they react? Like the lying bastard he was..
Do you still have contact with this person today? No. I quit lessons. And now I'm here.

Relationship gone bad...
Who is your worst ex? Matt.
What went so wrong with the relationship? He never actually liked me.
Would you ever consider going back to that person? Never.
Why or why not? I have my Sammy Bear! And he was a JERK.
Were you in love with them? No. Just liked him..
If so, was it unrequited or did they love you back? He just want some sex.
When did you break up? A few months back.
How long were you together for? A few weeks.
Do you still miss this person? No.
Still think about them? No.
Dream about them? No.
Long for them? No.
Do you two still speak? NO.
If you could change one thing about the relationship, what would it be? Nothing. I hate him.
Would you like to try again? No
Why or why not? JUST NO.
Do you forgive them? No

Current love life...
Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? A BOYFRIEND!
Where did you meet? Here at Rainy Day.
How long have you been together? 8 days.
What is their name? Sam Mehran <3
What is your age? 18
Who asked who out? It just happened. :]
Who liked who first? I think I liked him.
Did you two date before you became a couple? He hung out a few times.
Describe your first date: Well...He came over to my room to cuddle...and I ate his neck cause he was just so damn cute X]
What attracted you to this person? He's so cute and he makes me feel good.
If you weren't with this person, who would you be with? It's hard to say.
What would you say is their best quality? The way he makes me smile like no one else.
Worst quality? Nothing.
How do you feel about your relationship with them? I love it.
What was your first kiss like? It made me melt.
What is the strongest part of your relationship? US! LOLZ! The fact that we manage to have fun :]
Weakest? Nothing. :]
Can you relate to them on an emotional level? Yes. I think so.
Were you sexually attracted to them the first time you laid eyes on them? It wasn't the first thing, but I did think he was gorgeous.
Do you remember the exact date you became official? December 29th or 30th I think.
When was the last time you saw them? A little while ago.
Have you told them you loved them? Yes.
Have they told you? Yes! :]
Describe this person in one sentence: Sam is one of the best things to ever happen to me.
Is this the most meaningful relationship you've been in? Yes.
How often do you two fight? I think we had one "fight." And it was completely my fault, and he was a complete sweetheart about it.
When was the last time you fought? Yesterday?
What is the biggest fight you've ever had? It wasn't really a fight..
How do you usually make up? Kisses and cuddles. ~~Make love.~~
Have you ever cried in front of them? Yes. Almost..
What PDAs are you two fond of? Kissing, and all that cute stuff.
Do you feel this relationship will last? I hope that it does.
Would you rather make love, have sex or fuck this person? Anything he wanted.
Have you already? Yes.
How long were you together the first time? Huh?

Thoughts on love...
Do you believe in soulmates? I don't know...
If so, do you believe you've found yours? Maybe?
Should gay couples be allowed to adopt? Why/why not? Of course. I honestly don't understand why not.
Should they be allowed to marry? Well yeah....
Have you ever passionately kissed someone of the same sex? I do everyday. :]
Do you want to get married? Maybe one day..
Do you believe that open relationships are okay? I guess..If that's what they really want...
Have you ever had a one night stand? Yes. But I actually liked them.
What are your feelings on casual sex? Not for me.

[OOC]

2008-01-06T20:49:49Z

OMFG!
Gerard-S is coming overrrrrrrr!
I'm so exciteddd!
She's like my best friend for LIFE.
:D

I feel like a child.
X]
Oh..
and
I BOUGHT SPARKLY STAR STICKERSSS!
Some of them have smileys on them!
XD

justinjake @ 2008-01-05T15:33:00

2008-01-05T23:43:45Z

It's not like it really matters anymore. I try my hardest and I still fail.
I came here to stop feeling worthless but it seems the same things happen here as they do out there.
Maybe even worse...
Damn pills gave me a false sense of security...Fuck them.
Being mislead by them only made this harder for me.
Being happy doesn't seem to be something I'm allowed naturally.
I'm always used. And abused.
It's never going to change.
No matter how much love I give, no matter how much I care.
I never matter.

I'll be in my room. Don't bother to visit me.
I don't want my heart to shatter even more when you come to tell me you don't want me anymore.

For Josh.

2008-01-05T06:17:07Z

Yes.
I promised him :]
Can you guess who's who?

Don'tcha love the purple shoes?
LOLZ.
ILYSMJOSH!
~~More than you'll ever know.~~

justinjake @ 2008-01-04T14:47:00

2008-01-04T22:50:25Z

I MADE COOKIES.
AND I'M MAKING WAY MORE.
WHO WANTS SOME?
Come see me.
:]

~~ionlybakewheni'mlonely~~

Hm...So...

2008-01-01T21:49:50Z

I had an AMAZING New Years.
:D
There's a first time for everything right?

How was everyone elses New Years?

I spent mine with one of my closest and bestest friends, Josh.
ilysmjosh.

:]

Let's Go Running ...

2007-12-31T20:55:49Z

Another day Bob...
I'm super sick...
due to yesterday.
And my Sam isn't here to take care of me. T_T
Well there goes my New Years...

Happy New Years guys!

I think I'm gonna go sleep...
Brandon the hoodie you made me keeps me so warm!
ILYSM!
:D

Yep...Fun Times...

2007-12-31T05:43:14Z

Today...I painted a Picture on my wall!
It's a bamboo forest with orchids and a family of three pandas!!!
:D

And I was supposed to go running with Bob this morning...but I wanted to run some extra first...
and..
well

...

I don't wanna get sick!!!
D:

I Think I Have...

2007-12-29T08:36:51Z

A boyfriend...
Yeah, I know...
Me? Boyfriend?
Exactly.
That's why I think I have one.
I'm not really sure.
: \

But what I do know is that...
I really like him.
And he knows.
:]

Maybe It Shows How I Feel Better Than I Do....

2007-12-29T00:47:04Z

I’m not one for love songs.
The way I’m living makes you feel like giving up
But you don’t,
And I want everything for you.

My disappointment
‘Cause you’ve been left behind
And the world has its shine,
I would drop it on a dime for you.

(Hey oh!)
And whatever it takes.
(Hey oh!)
I’m gonna make my way home.
(Hey oh!)
We can turn our backs on the past
And start over…

Not long ago
I gave up hope,
But you came along
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know.

Before I met you
I used to dream you up and make you up in my mind (up in my mind)
Woah-oh.
And all I ever wanted
Was to be understood.
You’ve been the only one who could.
I could never turn my back on you.

(Hey oh!)
And whatever it takes.
(Hey oh!)
I’m gonna make my way home.
(Hey oh!)
We can turn our backs on the past
And start over…

Not long ago (not long ago)
I gave up hope, (I gave up hope)
But you came along (you came along)
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know (more than you could ever know.)
More than you could ever know.
It’s you.

Not long ago
I gave up hope,
But you came along.
Gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
(Yeah!)
Not long ago (not long ago)
I gave up hope, (I gave up hope)
But you came along (you came along)
You gave me something I could hold on to.
Woah-oh.
And I want you.
Oh, woah.
More than you could ever know.

OMG!

2007-12-28T21:30:34Z

Let's hang out!
:D

So..Give Me What I Want, Baby...

2007-12-27T06:46:22Z

You're so cute! And sexy...
And I want you.
All the time.
And I want you with me right now.
So I can KissBiteLickLove you.
And so we can cuddle and be warm! :D
ILY.

But ...

You're never here...